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From the Inside Out -Hillsong
A thousand times I’ve failed
Still Your mercy remains
And should I stumble again
I’m caught in Your grace

Everlasting
Your light will shine when all else fades
Never ending
Your glory goes beyond all fame

In my heart and my soul
Lord I give You control
Consume me from the inside out
Lord let justice and praise
Become my embrace
To love you from the inside out

Wah, as usual I was late for my lecture. I wear track pants and the "PE" shirt to school because of the Sport & Wellness. I joined TKD, but this was not I want in the first place. I wanted to join badminton, but no more space how no choice. As I don't really want to join others.

School was still the same sian ! Had to stay till 6 pm. For the first lesson of the TKD we learned how to position, the command, and 1 to 10 in korean. Ha, as TKD from korean.

1 hana
2 to
3 sheck
4 nep
5 tashoo
6 yoshoo
7 yorogu
8 yoro
9 ahhock
10 yo

Just by learning how to position my leg feel cramp. The lesson consist of 12 weeks, which mean I'll be wearing the track pants and that shirt moving around. Quite weird wor ! Wahahahahaha... lox...

When I reach home, it was about 7+ then I slowly slowly pack my things and at 8+ I went to bath. I told my father that I was going to meet my Secondary friends and it'll be around the same time I used to come home. He said he'll wait for me, but I tell him not to worry and go to sleep as I'll surely take the last bus safely back home. Furthermore I told him that sister & brother will not sleep so early.

It was around 9.30+ I went down and walk to mac, eat ice-cream & fries. Later, I walked to the bank and update my bankbook then to the park behind. As I walk up, I was quite scare as it was very dark. But later I feel much better as I saw people jogging, I walked towards the playground and take a place of the swing.

It was also quite scarry as there only trees around and I was playing the swing. Heez ^_^ you guys should know what I mean. Because I scare that something will appear, I keep my head down all the while. When he appear, he really scare me. It was so quiet there and suddenly appear.

He take a seat on the swing next to me, and we went silence for quite some times. I was thinking didn't you the one who say that we need to talk ! But we are not talking at all. I was thinking should I break the silence by opening my mouth to ask what are we going to talk about.

But my voice don't seem to come out. We continue being silence till he sent a message at 22.25, this is when we start talking but using mobile. My thought was if it's like this we can do it at home ! I was feeling like crying but just can't let it flows down and i really hate it when it flows. Because I know clearly that either I stop it or I'll cry non stop. I think it the best to stop. Our last talk end with the 9th message he sent me at 23.11. We still didn't talk and walk back home. On the way to my house we still didn't spoke. At the end "Sorry" was hear from you, the only word came from you and then you left.

I was feeling very very guilty, for letting you being so confuse. If I stop my message and my thoughts and don't think of anything. I think you'll not be in the state of confusion. Life still goes on, carry on with your life and be happy.

I'm really very sorry for causing all the troubles and problems. Gomenasai.

11:56 pm;
to love You from the inside out

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